Is that hope I feel?
I'm in a legitimately good mood right now.
I'm planning my parents an anniversary party, and I started this weekend by working on their invitations. I designed them, printed them and applied glitter to them by hand. Even though this party is going to cost me money I simply do not have right now (looking at the budget we put together makes me want to barf), I revel in putting together itineraries and party details. I'm looking forward to handcrafting table centerpiece vases as we get closer to the date.
I really need to prioritize being creative -- it satisfies a part of my brain that nothing else does. The good news is that I have another project on the horizon (crafting Halloween costumes for me and the dogs), so between that and the blog I can keep this creativity trend up.
This weekend also saw us have an incredibly fun Saturday night while simultaneously spending zero dollars. Ryan and I attended Art All Night on H Street, which meant we got to see a poetry reading, comedy show, photography exhibit, a cappella group, drummer, sushi rolling, and Filipino dancers, the last of which was by far my favorite. They did a traditional dance called the Tinikling, and at the end they let the audience participate. Anytime I'm watching a performance and they ask for volunteers, I'm always like ME! PICK ME! So, I tried it, and let me be the first to tell you it is way harder than it looks and they absolutely snapped those bars right on my foot. Ha.
Another of the weekend's highlights was that I finished my latest book and with it completed my Goodreads Reading Challenge for the year -- 21 books! One of my goals over the last year or so was to read more, and that has been one resolution in my life that I've actually kept. The book, The Seven or Eight Deaths of Stella Fortuna, has got me SHOOK, and you should totally read it. It's easily the best book I'll read all year.
I think also one of the reasons I'm in a good mood is that my diet and exercise over the last week have been solid. I'm slowly coming to terms with the fact that bread, as much as I love it, doesn't really sit well in my system. I feel physically better when I limit my carbs. So I did that, and I did yoga and spinning as well as a long hike with the dogs, and I feel great!
Finally, we've got some new dates for IVF, and while my rational brain tells me not to get my hopes up because we've been here before, I can't help but feel really, truly optimistic. I got my ERA results back, and it turns out I was "pre-receptive," which means that if we had gone through with an embryo transfer instead of doing the ERA, it likely wouldn't have worked because my body wouldn't have been ready. Armed with that knowledge, my doctors can tweak my treatment plan going forward to make it that much more likely that it will work for us. Plus, I'm doing the aforementioned diet and exercise, and I think that between that, the ERA and biopsied, healthy embryos, we're going to be successful this time. I just feel it in my bones.
And my bones are very happy right now.